Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Surrendering the Secret

Crazy pill count:
AM 125 Nuvigil, 10 Adderall
afternoon 10 Adderall
PM 10 Zyprexa, 20 Prozac

Post Secret is a fabulous community mail art project. The creative brain power behind Post Secret is Frank Warren.

The concept:
Send an anonymous secret on a 4 by 6 inch postcard made of any mailing material.
There are only two rules:
(1) The secret must be true.
(2) It must be a secret you have never told anyone before.

These secrets have turned into numerous books and also a weekly blog called Sunday Secrets.

The idea behind the project is that telling secrets is a healing process, and reading other's secrets we can identify with fosters a sense of hope.

You better believe I've sent in a secret. I admit I did find it exhilarating.
As I dropped my secret into the mail slot I felt a great release.

I'm bringing this up because a few weeks ago this was one of the Sunday Secrets.

This was not my secret, by I can definitely identify with it.
Maybe you can too.

I gave up the crazy process of trying to convince myself I'm not crazy long ago.
Why? Because it was driving me crazy.

I have, instead, started to celebrate my crazy, and begun the process of letting go of my crazy mistakes. I have finally come to a place where I have accepted that I'm crazy, tried a lot of crazy pills in the process, and volunteered to help bipolar disorder research.

There comes a point when, frankly, fighting is just too damn hard.
Trying to convince ourselves we're not crazy really can drive us crazy.

So I have surrendered (most of the time). I hope you can surrender too. Maybe not all day every day, but most of the time, eventually spending more and more time being okay with being crazy. Because guess what? It is who we are and it is okay. Perhaps not preferable...but okay nonetheless. You're pretty damn fabulous.

One of dearest friends told me once,
"I do think you are crazy. I think all of the most wonderful people are."

By golly he's right...
You are wonderful. 

If you want to share a secret send it here:
Post Secret
13345 Copper Ridge Road
Germantown, Maryland

Until next time...


  1. Have been a Postsecret follower for several years now and am always surprised when a secret I didn't even know I had, appears on the blog.
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
    I agree, but stopping the 'convincing yourself' can be pretty hard especially when the outside world also sees the 'sane' person and not the reality you're going through on the inside.


    1. I agree with you 100%. It's never easy! Especially when we "pretend."

  2. I agree with your friend. Most everyone I know is delightfully crazy in one way or anothr! And so am I!