AM 20 Adderall, 7.5 Zyprexa
PM .5 Ativan
There have been some interesting google searches that have led to this blog lately. A lot of you are still searching for pictures of that asshole, Travis Stork (click here for why he's an asshole), and shirtless pictures of McSteamy (I can't blame you, that man does look good shirtless.), but someone recently searched,
"What if you are crazy and the pills don't work?"
This is tricky.
It's not easy being crazy.
It's not easy trying to be patient while experimenting with pill after pill. I know this. Deep in my heart, I know how hard this business of being crazy can be.
My advice to you is to keep trying. I know that's probably not what you want to hear, but if we are diligent, we can find a pill or combination of pills that will work for us. Is it hard? Absolutely. I'm not going to sugar coat it for you. I'm not going to pretend it's easy. But it is possible.
I'm not a doctor; I can't tell you what pills to try; but your doctor can. If you are unsatisfied with your doctor's treatment plan, speak up, or find a different doctor. I know it can be hard to advocate for ourselves, especially when we are feeling like the dog shit stuck to the bottom of a shoe.
If you find yourself in a place where you can't advocate for yourself, reach out to someone who can do it for you. I have found lots of people want to help. They really do. Lots of people love you, and want you to feel good.
Wouldn't this be helpful?
Although crazy pill research is always advancing, it's not a perfect and easy science.
Being bipolar is being a living and breathing science experiment.
My, he sure looks eager to experiment.
The problem with experiments is that they require actual experimenting, and frankly, experimenting can be frustrating and tiring. But it's, truthfully, the only way to get to a conclusion. To get answers we must first ask questions. In our case the question being, "Is this particular pill going to work?"
Maybe. I wish the answer was always, undoubtedly, yes, but it's not. It never is. Man, does it suck sometimes - being crazy. But we are. The good news is that it doesn't always have to suck. It actually doesn't really suck that much, at all, when we're on the right crazy pill cocktail. It is possible to be bipolar and live a full, rich, and normal life. Perhaps not 100% of the time, but those smarty pants scientists are working really damn hard to get it to not suck 100% of the time.
Please don't give up.
This was a Sunday Secret a few weeks ago.
Hands down we need support from those who love us. But support and love alone is not enough. We need those damn and glorious pills to fix our brain chemistry. All the love in the world can't convince our neurotransmitters to hang out at just the right levels. They're kind of stubborn and obnoxious like that. They need crazy pills. We need crazy pills along with support and love.
Please don't give up.
You deserve to feel good, and you can.
Until next time...