AM 10 Adderall, 2.5 Zyprexa, 200 Lamictal, 30 Cymbalta
afternoon 15 Adderall, 2.5 Zyprexa
PM 2.5 Zyprexa
It’s easy to want to let go, to gently slip away, to give up
the fight.
Sometimes we don’t have any fight left. It is in these times we must fight more, harder,
with greater determination. We must take
our last bit of strength to take one more breath, one moment at a time.
This moment.
This moment.
This moment.
Now this moment.
Now this one.
And this one.
One moment of time is sometimes all we can deal with. But in these times it is enough. One moment at a time is all we need to keep
it up, to keep going, to keep breathing, and to keep surviving.
Don’t give up.
Keep taking what feels like your last breath
again, again, again.
Keep breathing, keep surviving, and then keep striving to
live instead of just survive.
Just keep the hell going, sweet friends; keep the hell
going.
Until next time...
Sometimes, when I catch it in time, this being in the moment and breathing thing helps bring to back to center, back to knowing that, in this moment, it is all okay.
ReplyDeleteIt is often in the catching it for me.
May this next moment be sweet for you.
Light and love, Gorgeous Wise One!
And sweet for you sweet friend!
ReplyDeleteHugs!
your words came back to me at a time this week when a panic attack left me lost for breath, thank you for reminding me that even if it does feel like the last breath I ever want to take, it's not...surviving is my first step towards living but today I spent time being honest with my closest friend who hasn't run away even though what I had to say was scary, perhaps even though it's still one breath at a time, now there's a hand to hold in that darkness, it might be okay to make some scary steps towards the light.
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration, thank you x
I am so happy to hear this. Not the struggle, of course, but the reaching out. Be so proud of yourself for taking that step towards support. You are so right when you said, "It might be okay to make some scary steps towards the light." So well said. It is indeed okay. And also necessary. Love to you from across the pond!
Deletethe photo captures just where I was a couple of weeks ago when the Cymbalta they had given me for nerve pain took my mind to a very scary space. I was walking out into the ocean and had the overwhelming thought to just keep walking and get it over with and then my true voice jumped in and said "get the hell out of the water" and with that I turned around and then lowered the dosage until I acclimated. Your sharings are brilliant, honest and point on. Thanks dear one for being part of my life.
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Oh, I am so glad your true voice jumped in! I love you so dearly. This word needs you!
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