AM .5 Ativan, 30 Cymbalta, 10 Zyprexa, 2.5 Abilify, 10 Viibryd
afternoon .5 Ativan, 60 Cymbalta
PM 5 Zyprexa, .5 Ativan
"I'm crazy and I know it and it's okay."
Yes. Yes. Yes!
We're crazy...and it is...okay.
I recon we crazies may even be part of what makes our world so stinkin' beautiful.
Actually, I am certain of it. It many not always feel preferable, that's for sure, but this random google box searching friend has the right idea.
I recon we crazies may even be part of what makes our world so stinkin' beautiful.
Actually, I am certain of it. It many not always feel preferable, that's for sure, but this random google box searching friend has the right idea.
There was another fabulous search:
This bipolar disorder stuff is tough and sometimes when someone asks, "Are you okay?" the answer is a big fat "No." And that is okay.
We don't have to pretend it's okay when it's not. We really don't. It's okay to fall apart sometimes. Of course nobody wants to fall apart, but it's okay to crumple onto the kitchen floor, or into the arms of someone we love. I know we want to put on our strong face. You know the one: fake smile, fake laugh, yada, yada, yada.
Geeze, I didn't know there was a syndrome.
It looks serious.
But sometimes we can't put on our strong face. Guess what? We don't have to. We don't have to be a superhero. We don't have to pretend everything is okay when it's not. It's okay to not be okay sometimes. Really it is. No one on this Earth, crazy or not, is expected to always have it together, and that includes me and you. Give yourself a break, and allow yourself to be a fragile human.
And when I say fragile I don't mean weak. I mean vulnerable in the most beautiful and human way. We don't have to have Fake Smile Syndrome. I mean, come on, look how creepy and dangerous it looks. We don't have to be a superhero either.
We can just be us. Us.
We are more than enough, just the way we are.
We're crazy.
And we know it.
Let's embrace it.
Because it's okay.
Until next time...
I had a really not so okay day yesterday. I have to say that I thought of you quite a few time, and wished really " knew" in my outside of Blogland life so I could sit with someone who really knows that that not okay feeling is and blow some fucking bubbles for a while.
ReplyDeleteBut then I remembered that I know you by heart, and you know me by heart, and I felt like we were kind of together. That helped a lot in that not so okay moment.
I am grateful you are in the world at the same time as me, Bacon Girl.
Today is a lot closer to okay, by the way. Grateful for that too.
Big love, Beautiful Heart!
Oh, my dear, dear friend. Yes, I do know you by heart. I'm so glad you were able to think of me being with you yesterday. I'm sorry you had a yucky day, but am glad to hear today is better. It means so much to me to know that I was able to offer some help because you have helped me so very much. Even if we only "know" each other in Blogland life. I am grateful to be in the world as the same time too. So very grateful. Big hug!
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