Friday, February 8, 2013

Scribbled Blob Makes Art

Crazy pill count:
AM .5 Ativan, 90 Cymbalta, 10 Viibryd, 25 Lamictal
afternoon 1 Ativan
PM 1 Ativan, 5 Zyprexa



Still.

I'm just a big, old, black scribbled blob and it's getting old - fast.


Over the summer, when I had a horrific mixed episode, Dr. Crazy recommended I try doing some artwork. I had never made angry art before, but I really got into it and found it to be very helpful. That Dr. Crazy never quits being a smart cookie. I talk all about it here. 

Yesterday, running out of options of survival of this current madness, I decided to try to navigate this damn depression and akathesia with some artwork. I was inspired during my sad song marathon in my "Bipolar Fallout Shelter" the other day.

This is what was birthed:






I found the experience wonderfully helpful and very positive. It gave me something to do with my restless hands, mind, and heart. I was even able to skip an optional dose of Ativan.
How's that for art therapy?! 

"You are an artist. Your heart is your masterpiece."
-Sleeping at Last

Interested in the song?
Listen to it here:

Until next time...


8 comments:

  1. Beautiful artwork and song, thank you for sharing. I hope the dark scribble starts to gain some colour very soon.
    hugs x

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    1. Thanks, On the Way...
      I'm sure those glorious colors aren't far away.
      How are you today, dear?

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  2. bacon! I love this! Your doc IS smart and you are brave to do this. Love the song, too. Are things getting better? I'm thinking about you. hugs you tight.

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    1. Things are getting better. Finally. Whew...what a ride. Giant hug!

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  3. Love the art! Love you, Mops. Keep it up, brave girl.
    Anita

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  4. Art has saved my life many a time. I am so glad you found it a comfort and a healthy escape from the darkness.
    You are amazing, Beautiful Bacon !

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    1. So thankful for art...so thankful for you!

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