AM .5 Ativan, 90 Cymbalta, 25 Lamictal
PM .5 Ativan, 5 Zyprexa, 50 Seroquel, 10 Viibryd
I have to say Lucy has really stepped up her commitment lately.
This morning we watched the film up/down together.
Lucy whole hearted watched the entire film:
I came across it on a fabulous gal's blog early this morning. (Hi Grace!) Now, we're not exactly talking Academy Award contender here, or anything, and I'm a little confused by some of the shots they used, like a water bottle floating in a ditch, but it had some really great information.
The majority of the film was interviewing a panel of peeps with bipolar disorder about their experience of living an "up/down life." I was delighted they also included a panel of loved ones of bipolar peeps to discuss what it's like to be in our life. But I have to admit this portion of the program was difficult for me to watch.
This is my feeling "difficult" face:
Now, I have a very strong suspicion of how damn difficult it can be to love me, but actually hearing the loved ones admit how difficult it really is, out loud, to my cat's face, was...well, hard.
I have been struggling for quite a long spell on the issue of motherhood and bipolar disorder, and hearing from the two children with bipolar mother's sent me clear off the emotional ledge. They confirmed my worst fears to be true...
Having a bipolar mom is really scary and really sucks.
At this confirmation I had to take a crying intermission.
Who knew up/down was going to be such a tearjerker?!
This is what a crying intermission looks like
in case you've never been and are considering going to one:
I really recommend up/down for any and all interested, affected by, or curious about bipolar disorder. Crazy peeps and their loved ones too - especially the loved ones of those with bipolar disorder, as I believe it can offer a great deal of understanding.
Apparently it's also interesting to cats, so by all means welcome them into the dialogue.
After all, they are a loved one of a bipolar peep too.
If you are interested in giving it a looksy:
Until next time...